Oh, Hai!

Oh hai!

Well, after swearing that I’d never go AWOL from blogging again, I totally did exactly that. (We all know what they say about the road to hell and good intentions and yadda yadda yadda.) Forgive me, por favor?

In the interest of full disclosure, I wasn’t blogging for a handful of reasons – the most notable being that I felt like my brain had been drained of any and all creative mojo. I think the last year, which involved more trauma and upheaval than I imagined possible, caught up with me over the last few months. Whenever I tried to sit down and write, nothing – zip, zilch, nada – would happen. Much like my skin during the winter (am I the only one who feels like a parched iguana from December through March?), my creative juices had dried the hell up. My brain was *so* not having it. Writing about normal, everyday topics felt trivial when I’d spent so long in survival mode, and so anything I managed to eke out was basically drivel.

And I don’t want to publish drivel. Soooo…I just didn’t publish anything.

Adding to the whole “I have nothing but drivel” motif that kept me from blogging, I also have often felt overwhelmed by all the things blogging entails — but mostly replying to comments here and leaving comments elsewhere. Guys, it’s muy time consuming. My schedule already feels like it’s at max capacity when I incorporate writing a post into my daily routine, and adding to that fragile balance leads to a sense of overwhelm that quickly snowballs into, like, an abominable snowman of Sh*t I Have to Do.

Lastly, I’ve generally put a lot of pressure on myself to make my posts perfect before putting them up on the internets. I’m a recovering perfectionist in, um, pretty much every facet of my life. (I’ve been late for work because I’m determined to flat-iron into submission the one section of my hair, in the very back of my head, which insists on being wavy. No lie. Because priorities.) I’m gradually getting better at it, but since writing feels like the closest thing I have to a baby at this point in my life, I’m prone to spending waaaaaaay too much time fine-tuning my words, finding the perfect graphics to break up the blocks of text, making sure the formatting is exactly how I want it to look, and so forth. But really, that needs to come to a screeching halt, because…



So, I’m going to test-drive a new policy:

First, I’ll write what I can, when I can, and I’m going to work on being ok with a less than perfect post. That last bit is going to be a big – nay, colossal – challenge, but, being that perfectionism and obsessively worrying about random crap I can’t control are my biggest strengths (and by strengths, I mean weaknesses), I feel like it’s probably something I’d benefit from.

Second, I’ll comment and reply to comments when I can, but please know that even if I don’t get to it, I love all you guys and I love your posts. Hearing about what you’re up to, even if I’m just lurking in the proverbial shadows (and I mean that in the most non-creepy way possible), makes me smile and send loads of mental hugs and warm fuzzies out to each of you. So, even if you don’t hear from me often and I become the Lame Lurking Blogger, I still love all the awesome things you guys have to say.

So, with that, here’s to imperfect posts and Lame Lurking Blogger tendencies!

9 thoughts on “Oh, Hai!

  1. jessielovestorun April 1, 2014 / 8:44 am

    Girl, write when you can and reply when you can! I’m just happy you stopped in & let all of us know you’re alive & healthy :)

    • Lillian @ Seize the Latte April 3, 2014 / 6:23 am

      Thanks, Jessie! I’m looking forward to my “what I can, when I can” experiment — hopefully it’ll be less life-consuming and far more fun. :) I hope all is well with you!

  2. chasingchels April 1, 2014 / 11:52 am

    Yay!!! I’m glad you’re coming back on your terms! I’ve missed you :) Can’t wait to read what you write when you can! Hugs your way :)

  3. Cindy Jillie April 1, 2014 / 1:38 pm

    My day is much brighter. I’ve missed you. Thanks, Lillian!

  4. livliveslife April 2, 2014 / 6:06 pm

    Blogging is SUCH work! It’s fun, but like you said, time consuming. I’m pretty much doing the same thing you are at this point: writing when I can and what I can, and it’s working out just fine for me. :-) I’m glad to see you’re back around!

    • Lillian @ Seize the Latte April 3, 2014 / 6:20 am

      Thanks, Liv! It’s good to know that the “what you can, when you can” approach is working well on your end — that gives me hope for my experiment. :)

  5. Meghan April 3, 2014 / 12:28 pm

    You’re adorable. And yes, blogging takes a lot of time that a lot of us lose every now and then. It’s all good girl, it’s more important to live your life and blog when you can and if you want to! :) That’s how I do it and I do just fine. :) You’ve got this!! And welcome back pretty.

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